Ok.... I started writing this on Tuesday, which was Rosh Hashana and it made more since then. But anyway........
I can' believe it is almost October. This year is really breezing by way too fast. Before you know it it will be Christmas. I have been so busy this fall, with getting Gavin settled into pre-school, a project for my church, our adoption support group plans, working on a starting (or re-launching) my event planning business, trying to run an organized home, oh and the job I get paid for my head has been spinning!
I have been way to overwhelmed with plans! You ever felt like that? I feel like I have all of these grand plans in my head and I end up working on too many things at one time! They are good plans, plans that could really work out, if I stayed focused, organized and was a good delagater. I am not good in any of those areas. I tend to loose focus and move on to other projects, become un-organized and which ties into the whole focus part, and as far as the being a delagator, I end up not enlisting help because I know exactly how I want something done, and can't bare to have it done the wrong way by someone else.
The funny thing is all of my friends think I am really good in those areas. I seem organized and focused because I'll complete the project on time and to the required specfications, but it's because I've waited til the last minute and burned the midnight oil doing it. Everyone thinks I am a good delagator because I am bossy. Yeah I admit it here, I am bossy, I always have been, it's in my genes.
In all these projects I have been working on I have been letting the me time (and my blog time) fall by the wayside. I always feel like I am on the hunt for balance. I get all engrossed in the craziness and then when I find myself teetering on the edge of insanity I realize "you wouln't be teetering over here if you would just find balance!" Then I have to go back and re-group. I mean in my head it all works out, I can do it all, I can be a good wife and mom, and I can enjoy my outside interests and lend my talents to causes that I care about. I can explore the possibility of a home based business while being a women in the workforce and get the laundry done, stick to my menu plan, loose a few pounds and have a clean house. And then the very thought of all of that makes crawl into bed and watch tv with a large bag of chips! LOL! Shameful. I have tons to blog about and just don't get around to it. Gavin is a real commediane and a smart alec and says all kind of crazy stuff that I should be sharing here, like when I tallk to him while he is praticing writing his letters and he says "Mom I'm COMSEMTRAING" or when he says in the supermarket, "Somebody Smells Really Bad" (and it's true).
Even though I am not Jewish, I am observing Rosh Hashanah in my own way. This has been a challenging but good year so far. I can look back on this year and see the mistakes I've made, but I am more proud of some of the changes I've made. I know I still need quite a bit of work to do in this new year, but Life is Good and Getting Better.
*L'Shanah Tovah Tikatevu
Literal Hebrew to English Translation: May you be inscribed (in the Book of Life) for a good year
Meaning: This Rosh Hashanah greeting wishes others a good year and a good judgment by God.
Note: This greeting is often shortened to Shanah Tovah (Good Year).